Day 2

Still sucking, but itsy, bitsy imporvement on sit-ups.
Run: 16:53
Sit-ups: 16
Push-ups: 0

I told Stacy I want to do this for sure.  I also told him I need his help (which is a monumental deal because I don't ask for help).  He showed me the PT scorecard.  I have to get up to 20:20 run for 2 miles, 45 sit-ups and 17 push-ups.  I can get there, I know I can.

I haven't told my dad I'm doing this. I'm afraid he'll be all negative about it.  Of all the people, his negativity is probably what would undo my resolve.  I need happy, positive and encouraging words.  I can do this!

Later that day...

I don't know if I can do this.  I've been over thinking the issue to death; my escape planning behavior is kicking into high gear.  I need to do this.  I've set my mind on the task and now I just need to stay with it.  I've gained so much weight recently and I'm disgusted with myself.  I've put on 30 pounds since April, most of it in just the past few months.  But I'm bored all day, what am I supposed to do to stay busy and active?